i couldn't have been the only one who saw this coming...

looks like kim kardashian & kris humphries are headed for the big d, and i don't mean dallas.  if my trusty hometown newspaper confirms it, it must be true...

what a joke, no respect for the sanctity of marriage.  couldn't they have given it more than 2 months?  i guess when you have glittery ponies, three wedding dresses, and helicopters at your wedding things are D.O.A.  like many americans, i watched the two-part e! wedding special and i saw bad omens that this relationship would tank (how uncomfortable was the rehearsal dinner where the betrothed didn't even sit together?)  i am appalled that this wedding earned the kardashians an estimated $18 million profit, yet i still watched...don't really know if i want to follow this family anymore?

open letter to courtney kerr

as i mentioned in my previous post, i was a consistent viewer of bravo's "most eligible dallas."  it's not the proudest moment of my life, but somehow this series found its way into my little world.  when i saw the previews for the show, i thought it was somewhat tacky and tres cheezy, but my interest was peaked because i wanted to see how bravo would portray texas and i also had a good friend who dated one of the main characters and we were curious about that as well.  out of all of the characters, i gravitated toward courtney kerr.  though i thought she had some unabashedly rude moments coupled with lingering (and very difficult to watch) insecurities, i applaud her for having gumption, sticking to her guns, always lighting up a room, dressing to kill, and being what i like to call a real girl's girl.  one of the main story lines of the show was the relationship between courtney and her "best friend" aka love of her life matt nordgren - a former ut quarterback and man about town.  the finale on monday night led us to believe that matt & courtney had FINALLY decided to give it a go after all these years, but watch what happen live with andy confirmed that matt was a D-A-W-G and screwed things up with courtney.  apparently he's hooking up with rh beverly hills housewife taylor armstrong?  weird.  though it is entirely none of my business and a little creepy that i care so much, i thought i'd offer my best advice to courtney:

Dear Courtney,


I grew to love watching you sashay through Uptown and ride the magic carpet of a pretty young Dallas socialite on Monday nights.  So many of your perils reminded me of myself and when you spoke of your longing to find a good man and that you truly believed he was out there somewhere, I resonated with that because I believed in that dream myself.  You had a certain indelible quality about yourself, a panache of sorts.  Your fearless fashion sense coupled with your mane of enviable locks made everyone take notice.  However, it was your grit and moxie that was most admirable.  You weren't just a dumb Dallas blonde looking for 15 minutes of fame, you were actually smart and sarcastic.  


Watching your relationship with Matt unfold was touching (and I really was rooting for you two), however most of the advice you doled out to others, you hardly took yourself.  It was blazingly obvious that you were madly in love with Matt.  From your jealous showdowns with his other women to your insistence that he was the man in your life, you weren't fooling anyone with the "just friends" rhetoric.  Come on Court, haven't you seen "When Harry Met Sally?!?!"  Men and women can't be "just friends."  Not if you're really close anyway.  The way I see it, Matt (like so many men who have come before him and will inevitably follow) wants to have his cake and eat it too.  He likes to keep you around because he genuinely enjoys your company and "loves" hanging out with you, but he isn't willing to give up his harem of women.  Yes, timing is everything and maybe "someday" you guys could work it out, but do you want to wait for someday?  What if someday never comes and you find yourself 42 years old still pining over Matt Nordgren when you passed up the opportunity for someone to come sweep you off your feet and treat you like a real man.  The problem is if Matt is always in the picture (as he has been for the last five years) you will never be able to make room in your heart for that man.  


Please don't think I'm scolding you or telling you what you should do, but in this situation, I know from which I speak. All you have to do is read this blog to figure that out.  Like you, I was an independent, educated gal loving life and having a great time, but I was always attracted to (and therefore relentlessly chasing) men who were really fun, energetic, ambitious (all good qualities) but alas completely emotionally unavailable.  I spent years trying to do the right thing and be the right person wondering why I wasn't good enough.  I then spent ANOTHER two years trying in earnest to convince a man who I was absolutely crazy about to love me.  Like you, I thought I could be the one woman to get him to settle down and be monogamous, but my attempts were futile.  I can't explain it, but one day I woke up and the world just looked a little different to me.  I looked at myself in the mirror and said, "What the sam hell are you doing?!?  You've got to stop wasting your time sitting around waiting on a man to change.  You have to love yourself and know that you're enough.  You have to believe that there is a man somewhere on this planet who will think you are the bee's knees and the only girl in the world."  I started to believe that message in my core, I got rid of the toxicity, and I started to live with the hope that all I had to do was be myself.  Literally, less than six months after making that decision, God delivered a man who fit every single one of my criteria, writes songs about me, tells me I'm gorgeous when I wake up in the morning, and works diligently to make all my dreams come true.  I didn't have to twist his arm or give him an ultimatum to marry me.  He asked me to marry him 118 days after the night that we met and when I asked him why he did it so soon, he replied, "Shannan, when a man really loves a woman he cannot bare the thought of her being with anybody else."  


So there you go Courtney.  I just think you're too wonderful and beautiful to be chasing some silly boy around with hopeless devotion in your eyes.  You're so much better than that and you've got to believe that! 


Hope to hear your love story one day,


Shannan